2011

Today I feel like me, < 3



2011 is for finding myself.
Healing myself.
It's for spiritual growth.
It's for health, and for mental strength and control.
To forgive.
To love who I am.
To blossom as a person and an artist.

Those hand full of people

closest to my heart,

thank you 

and I love you< 3

daddy,

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 PAST>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

Ethan, the crystal child//

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 PRESENT>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
without the pretty colours

Self portrait//

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"When you don't want to feel, death seems like a dream."

can't comprehend the thought

Night terrors- I wake up screaming.

Confused feelings. Fustration. Overwhelming emotions. Panic.

"It's like I can't comprehend the thought. It's too confusing to understand."

I don't want to forget. I want to remember.

Above is my kitty cats eye< 3 3

"Pray Green Skinned Lady, Pray."

My voice has dissapeared
and I can't find it.
So I guess I'll whisper
and hope to God you hear me.





Here is a drawing I did a while back, but decided to share today..

"Pray Green Skinned Lady, Pray."

Inspired by Amanda M. Jansson < 3

FUCK AND SLEEP

I miss the way you never hit me.

I think I’d be better off dead,

Let me take some panadiene and fucking sleep.

Fuck and sleep,

Sleep and fuck.

I’m not your favourite girl.

Do you slap her the way you hit me?

D;

"Our innate desire is to be happy, and when we move away from it, we experience fear. This fear is millions of years old, for it arises from the biological programming of our species.

Running questions with this type of urgency and helplessness trains our brains to prepare now for future danger by loading our bodies up with the stress hormone cortisol.

Anxiety is our anticipation. It weakens and exhausts us. We usually worry most about things that we can't control.

It is enervating, and it drains you of purpose and hope, faith and initiative. It fogs up your thinking. And it makes the body susceptible to illness.

Caught between the past and the future you create a pattern of emotions that can lead to a variety of mood disorders. This, in turn, translates into depression."

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he's not like other daddies,like other daddies,like other daddies,


"Dear heart,
Fall in love when you're ready.
Not when you're lonley."

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"Blood on my knife or
shit on my dick."